Just Be

I've been tired since the CE-5 Protocol conference, and sleeping a lot. It was an intense gathering with a lot of information fed to us in a short amount of time. My brain is still working on digesting it all. I didn't take notes. They said that there was no need. They were going to record everything, and make it available to us for two months. I just found out that the recordings will not be available until after August 8. And I've been contemplating if I should write anything here. I think I can cover the first day, Friday, July 26, which was a two-hour lecture. I've been working on it, and will be posting it soon. As for the rest, I'll have to wait until After August 8.

 

As I packed for last weekend, I kept thinking about what else I needed to take. How will things turn out. I was anxious, dwelling on the unknowns. Then on my way over, everything went wrong, and it even got worse, when I got to the B&B. My laptop locked me out, I couldn't get into my email, my phone was almost dead, and all I wanted to do was yell bloody hell. But I had a commitment to show up for the lecture, and there was a short window left for me to register. The problem was, my car needed fuel which meant the possibility of me showing up too late. No choice. So, after Google map took me round and round because I refused to drive on dirt roads, I landed at a gas station, filled up, and took off. 

 

I made it, registered, and went in to listen to Steven Greer for two hours. This trip taught me about myself. I should have started off more relaxed, and just let life do its thing. Because all I can do is to plan, but I have no control over anything else. Things may go wrong, specially in L.A's traffic, and I must accept that. I mean, I survived even if everything did not go my way.

And this brings me to this point. We're often concerned about how things will turn out, and what if this or what if that. But often, none of the what if this or that happens. When we were four or five, we never gave things a second thought. What if we just let life happen. Maybe, the more we relax, the better things will turn out. By thinking about what ifs, we miss out on being in the moment, and preventing the flow of good energy. We should become that five-year-old who runs around in circles, and is happy-go-lucky. And perhaps then, things will happen in the direction we want to go.